Good read.
In the Marines, we have a saying, “Train as you fight, fight as you train.”
The idea being if you train, and train hard to the point it is second nature, if you come upon a “freeze” moment, your training takes over and you continue the fight.
The fire service is similar. A “freeze” moment can be life or death not only to you, but to your fellow firefighters. No one wants to be that guy. So, the fire service they put you through the ringer in a controlled environment to stress you as much as possible so you wont freeze.
EMS is not much different. Classroom it is all clinical, by the book. Reality is quite different when your patient is in real pain, bleeding, in panic, and screaming.
How do you over come something like the above? Get training. Train hard. Push yourself.
Our kitchen is full of funny and some serious signs, like some bars. One reads, “You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.”
Know how strong you can be.